wired

i better stop telling you about what is going on
'cause you will never understand
so all i've got to do is just stop..
..singing

wired.

creepy crawlies

i felt so happy today
when i knew that you are coming to stay yeah yeah
with a happy shiny smile
heading to McD that sell us junk food no no
then i felt so bored today
when i knew that you are going away no no
with a mourn mourn soul
heading to the bar that sell us mugs of drinks, sell us jugs of drinks
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah !

creepy crawlies.

telefon selular

waktu menunjukkan tepat jam 2.00 pagi di batu pahat, bersamaan jam 11.00 malam di karachi dan 8.00 malam di istanbul.

telefon selular keluaran sekitar tahun 2004 kepunyaan aku tak berbunyi sejak jam 9.00 malam tadi, waktu batu pahat. satu keadaan yang aku anggap paranormal sejak aku bergiat dalam bidang penggunaan telefon selular secara serius selama lebih kurang 6 tahun lepas.

aku capai telefon selular yang pecah skrinnya itu dengan satu perancangan yang teliti - menaip sesuatu dalam format sistem pesanan ringkas, seterusnya menghantar teks ringkas itu kepada seseorang, lantas mengakibatkan telefon selular perempuan itu berbunyi, kesan daripada aktiviti penghantaran teks ringkas oleh aku.

setelah melalui beberapa saat perasaan gementar melampau, aku cekalkan hati dan menaip;

"nite!" - dalam hati.

rancangan gagal.

...

2.20 pagi.

"ting tong!"

satu teks ringkas aku terima dari dia.

"yahu!" jerit aku dalam hati sambil membayangkan aku sedang melompat kegembiraan. aku malas nak lompat betul-betul sebab mengantuk.

"kenapa delete fb?" kata teks ringkas itu.

...

aku tak cukup kuat.

pulih

dah gua tak nak sedih-sedih lagi. sedih-sedih sangat ni syaitan punya kerja. apahal nak ikut cakap syaitan pulak ye dak? bebal kan gua?

terima kasih Tuhan kerana sentiasa ada di sisi hamba-Mu yang hina ini.

yok sama-sama!

Allahu Akbar!!

good oldies

bullied by seniors; got caught sneaking out; chased by a black dog in a dark night; punished by wardens; suspended from school; chased by a guard for sneaking into school meeting room to watch some porns; got injured playing rugby; failed in physics, biology, chemicals and add maths; fucked up in 'kem hijrah'; wins and loses in rugby tournaments; hated by some teachers; listened some shit musics; had a crush on a girl then got rejected; love letters; got some secret admirers; smoked for the first time; learnt playing guitar; slept in classes; cheated in exams; watched porns in the teachers' office in the night; got some medals from long distance races; captained a sport house; stole a telly from canteen, and a dvd player from school meeting room; sneaked into empty girls' hostel; smoked in an empty class in the night, accidentally set the class on fire; had camping trips with classmates; got straight A's in PMR; played some shit football in the evening; etcetera..

oh, and blind-dated a cute, charming, sweet sweet girl!

...

gone are those days.